It's that bittersweet time of year again. Those conflicting emotions of excitement and letdown, the anticipation of things to come and the dread of having to change our routine, new starts vs old habits, and the worst: holding on while wanting to let go. I know it sounds dramatic and maybe a little over thought but today (this whole week actually) has been a big boiling pot of emotion. My babies are going back to school tomorrow! I'm not ready to have 5th and 6th graders! I'm not ready to start my day earlier than 8am! I don't want bedtimes and homework and projects! I don't want to shell out endless amounts of money for yearbook and PTA and supplies and, horror of all horrors, Science Camp! I don't want to give up the beach and the pool and wandering through the day with countless hours ahead of us to do whatever we please!
Wait a minute! Who's summer am I remembering? Jesus! It sounds like something out of a Jane Austen book! You'd think I had a summer house along the shore full of servants and nannies! Our summer was nowhere near being so footloose and fancy free! It's not even over yet and my memory is already so skewed in the face of what's to come!
On the flip side I'm longing to get back into a routine. To have structure and discipline. I need to get down to some serious work as well. I've been letting my job take a back seat for the past 2 months and I'm ready to make it a priority again. It's nice to relax and allow yourself to be lazy once in a while. But 2 months? Rather than a luxury it becomes a bit gluttonous and turns a reward for a job well done into slovenly dysfunction.
So that's what we're wrapping up folks! Slovenly dysfunction! I just totally talked myself down! Or wrote myself down. My boiling pot of emotion has become a simmering pot with the balanced aroma of sweet memories and savory new beginnings. And don't think for a minute that I'm oblivious to the amount of cheese in this recipe.....
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